So, you know what? I was pretty much right in my belief that I had no friends I could believe in to be there for me when I really needed it.

I may personally suck at some of the day to day friends stuff, but whenever someone has really needed me I have always been there - if they've asked.

Yesterday I realised that I have nobody to really be there for me when I need it. Not jamie. Not family. Not anybody else.

I have no confidence or self esteem any more. I am obviously not a good person when nobody has the time of day for me.

I give up. I can't be fucked trying anymore.

So my sister has apparently disowned me over the tiniest of misunderstandings. Gave my flat keys back.

This Christmas just gets better.

She can go fuck herself too.